Act 1, Scene 7: The End of Act 1

Hmm, I'm contradictory. I know I said Act 1 will end when she's finally accepted me. But I guess that's wishful thinking for now.

It's been a while since I've seen her. And we only got to talk at length when she was on her way to work yesterday.

Today's Aidiladha so: SELAMAT HARI RAYA to everyone.

Went to Assyafaah for Raya prayers. It was nice and cooling and I got to pray in the prayer hall. The sermon today was about....um...I think it was about self-sacrifice and our duty or sacrifice to God. It was a nice sermon. Halfway through it, I started thinking it might be nice if sermons weren't too rigid and there was some humour infused in them. But again, wishful thinking. Ha.

Dad was his usual cranky self cos he hasn't eaten so we went for breakfast at Rubinah's in Sembawang. Thosai was ok. Not too bad. Tea was abit bland though.

Then I got home and slept til FIVE PM!! Pig....

Anyways a funny thing happened yesterday. I was driving my mum to the market in Marsiling and we were passing by the new park beside Republic Poly when I thought,

'Hmm, I was here with Shukor once.' Then when I looked at the bus stop, I saw a guy waiting there (if you live in Woodlands and you know the bus stop you'd also know NOBODY waits there).

So as I drove nearer I thought,

'Hmm, which Bangla is waiting here in the searingly, oppressive heat? Eh wait...that looks like...SHUKOR??!!'

Haha.

He managed a wave as I drove by with my mouth agape; considering my luck. So I did a quick (read: illegal) U-Turn and drove up to him. Apparently he sent his sister's car for servicing and was headed back. I told him my mum was going to the market and I was bored so he agreed to accompany us there. So when my mum went off for marketing we went off for coffee and a chat. Haha. Such luck.

I dropped my mum off at home and accompanied him while he got his car serviced. Apparently the battery's dead so after a few phone calls and stuff, we drove to Alexandra to get the battery changed (cos he believed that it was under warranty). Ha..another surprise...

When the mechanic took out the battery,

'Boss ah. This is not our battery leh. We don't sell this battery here.'

Suddenly there were like 5 people all trying to figure out how the battery ended up in the car. You should have seen us, man. 5 people standing around all staring at the battery and wondering. Ha.

So after a few more phone calls, we discovered that the battery came from a workshop in Bukit Panjang so we just changed it. Ha. What a day. I got back at about 3 plus when Sadik messaged me asking about my results. Suddenly my stomach churned. I asked about his and he told me he got a 3.25 GPA. I panicked! We did our ICT project as a pair so obviously I was afraid.

When my results came on-screen, my hands were actually covering my face. Ha..

So here it is, for all to see.

Ed Psych I B-
Ed Psych II B-
ICT B-
English B+
Math A

GPA: 3.75

I suck.

I was hoping for a GPA of at least a 4.0. =( The Ed Psych modules really pulled me down. And a B+ for English?!! ARGH!!! I don't really mind my A. I was hoping for an A+ but considering I left most of the questions from one chapter blank, an A was the best I should have hoped for. Makes no difference to my GPA,though if it was an A+, it would have stoked my ego abit more. Hee...Not too bad for a first semester I guess considering I averaged a C/D for my Advanced Diploma and a fail in my A levels. Hee..I'm moving up. =)




INTERLUDE




Now about Nur.

Princess, if you're reading this, I hope that you'll understand.

Recently, I've re-evaluated my friendship with you. I realise now that what you've said all this while was true: I was expecting something from our friendship.

The other day, I realised that I am not the one for you. I respect your decision and I can safely say that, I don't deserve you. The reason we agreed upon is true and I know it will be difficult to change that. It would be hard for me to look good for you and it is unfair for you to be seen with me.

Let me say this:

You deserve someone who would appreciate you for who you are.
And you are a beautiful, smart, adorable lady who should be respected as a Muslimah.
You deserve someone who would love you unconditionally, as much as he loves Allah and Islam.
You deserve someone who would always try to be there for you and who would treasure his moments with you.
You deserve someone who cares and will want to be the best for you.

It is not hard to find someone who fulfills those requirements. They're out there. Give them a chance. And choose with your heart as much as your head.

But, I now realise, I am not the one for you. I can never be. I don't deserve you.And as much as it breaks my heart to say it, it is the truth.

I still love you. But I can only do so as a friend.

As a friend, the most important thing for me is your happiness. And I can tell that what I am doing is making you unhappy. Thus, I must concede. I shall have no regrets and after a while, I will not feel the pain. =)

I hope that my decision is the right one. From the beginning when we met, I always wanted a great friendship with you. And now, I realise I've been ignoring that for my feelings. Let's work on making our friendship strong again yea?

I love, Nur.


- Curtain Closes-

-Exit Stage Left-

-Introduce Act 2-