Haha. First day back at school. Turns out I woke up late so I took the car to school. Massive jam everywhere man. But, still got there pretty early. =)
Wondering about the title? Haha. You would never guess it but one of my favourite band's My Chemical Romance. Why? I'll explain later.
Look at these lines:
Ray: You like D&D, Audrey Hepburn, Fangoria, Harry Houdini and croquet; You can't swim, you can't dance and you don't know karate. Face it, You're never gonna make it..
Gerard: I don't wanna make it...I just want...
Pure genius =)
Many kids here think they're emo cos they dress in black, walk around in boots and grow their hair long. They feel depressed cos their parents wont let them out during school holidays; they rock out to emo bands like MCR and Funeral for a Friend; they spend time at places like the Esplanade and surrounding areas in groups; and they slit their wrists when they find out their love interest's gay.
o_O
Stereotyping? Haha. That's what I do best. Princess said I like to brag cos I'm Patrick. But how many of those kids would have known how hard it was for my generation to grow up? We turned out well though but we went through the same problems. And we didn't resort to such measures to find a release.
You know what was my release? Not many people know this.
I used to go down to the park beside the Esplanade, either the one with the Lim Bo Seng Memorial or the other side which is now the NDP platform, and write for hours until I could not take it anymore and then I'd jump on the last 960 bus and head home. Haha. I had this whole folder of letters and stories I never showed anyone. But it was my release and my way of expressing myself.
So what was I like in school? Haha. I could tell Nur was kinda disturbed by what I told her I did in school today. But that was just who I was. Take a look at this video and you could imagine what I was like in school:
Haha. Notice how they all sat eating away from the other kids and even then, a distance from each other? I loved that scene. But I used to do stuff like discreetly take revenge against the people who were mean to me and stuff like that. I guess the main idea of the video is to show that sometimes, we're not all meant to act in a certain manner and we can be different. It's not so much a problem for kids here, I feel, but for kids in the US, it could be life-changing; to not belong and to be sidelined and judged by your interests.
I was a Hell-raiser for teachers. I once punched this classmate of mine outside the classroom while we were waiting to enter the class in Secondary 4 in front of my form teacher cos he said something rude. Hmm, if I remember correctly, he had a chipped tooth and his lip bled out. The teacher didn't report me though she did make me apologise. I didn't do homework; I was tactless and impolite; I was constantly disrupting lessons and I was in every single remedial class except for my English and Malay. Ha. Those were the days when I got away with a lot.
But I've mellowed. It was fun while it lasted but everyone's got to grow up yea? I never was popular with kids back then and I usually had one or two friends who I always hung out with and who, like me, were outcasts. In JC, things got a bit better. I made friends with my classmates and us guys were a close-knit bunch. But outside of my classmates, I rarely mingled. Even with the other Malay guys.
Then something happened last year. It was the Teacher's Prepatory Programme at Grange Road. I had to go with this fellow teacher from my school, Andi and he's basically a jock la; the kind I used to avoid in school. We had met a couple of days before and I profiled him as the typical jock as being totally in love with himself and stuff. So at the TPP, initially we barely spoke. But then a funny thing happened. We were seated at this table in the front cos we were somewhat late. Then another Malay guy walked in. It was my friend, Sadik whom I had met and spoken to just once when we were at MOE for our appointment briefing. I called out to him to join us and he did. So we were now three Malay guys at a table.
Then another jock walked in. He looked kinda dorky but he had the typical PE teacher look. He looked around, couldn't find a seat and finally sat down with us. Now we were a merry band of 4. Finally, two other Malay guys walked in and sat with us. Initially we were all apprehensive. But I'm sure you have seen this happen before. What happens when you put 6 Malay guys in the same group, sitting around the same table in a class? Haha..that's right, CHAOS.
We were laughing our butts off as we made jokes, commented on girls (aw...c'mon,it's natural) and answered rhetorical questions that left our lecturer dumbfounded. Haha. Pretty soon we all had nicknames (except for Andi and Sadik though). I was Shrek (cos I'm big,fat and ugly), Firdaus, the jock, was Polygamy (cos he wanted to say origami but uttered polygamy instead and left us dumbfounded for a while. the conversation was like this: Firdaus: I want the kids to do polygamy...Us: What?...Firdaus: Polygamy la..you know, where you fold paper...Us: ....LAUGHTER) and the two other guys were Snore (cos at about 11 am, while the lecturer was in the midst of explaining something, the guy actually SNORED) and Murtabak (He was quiet the whole day til after lunch. We were all ordering food and we had the usual Mee Goreng and Prata and when it came his turn to order he said: MURTABAK..we all stared at him. Haha. Then we made the joke that he was quiet cos he was hungry).
We had our usual butt of our jokes namely Siao On and Air Force. Haha.
Siao On: All his questions were based on his experiences and he just kept asking question after question til a 5 minute discussion could last 15 minutes due to his need to argue with the lecturer.
Air Force: Apparently, the guy just resigned from the service kinda like a mid-career change. He can't seem to control his Primary 3 class and all his questions throughout the whole 2 day course was about how to punish and discipline kids. The fact that his clothes were all neatly pressed and his hair combed back slickly didn't help the situation. He got the short end of the stick. =)
What's the significance of all these? Well, for the first time in my education-life, I belonged. Ha. And I was glad.
Fast-forward to NIE and the first few weeks, all the friends I had were in the PE course. I ate with them, attended lectures with them and basically just hung out. Ha. Never would I have thought I'd have jocks as friends. But now I do and they're a fun bunch.
So for all those emo kids out there, listen up: it's a phase. You'll learn to outgrow your problems and think more maturely and don't despair just cos your allowance got cut or you're grounded, tomorrow's bound to be different and even if its hard, you'll make it. =)
Now just close your eyes, pop those drowsy pills, turn up your stereo to full blast (use headphones so your parents won't hear you) and rock out with MCR.
One last thing...
I love, Nur. =)
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