Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Act 7, Scene 1: The finale

I am being selfish.

By loving her, I am being selfish.

She should have the chance to live how she wants to and do the things that she feels like doing.

I am just a friend. I cannot hold her back, even if I want to keep her safe.

As I was driving today, I thought about how much I must be hurting her; forcing her to make a decision I know she cannot make without sacrifices.

It will be unfair for her to be with me. I don't deserve her. Really I don't. Not after I've hurt her so much.

I am a friend. And I love her.

It is ok if she never loves me, because it is enough that she lets me love her.

I am selfish.

But I will learn.

Learn to accept.

Learn to let her go.

Learn to just be there without asking for anything in return.

I still love you alot.

It's ok. Everything will be ok. I promise.

And I'm sorry...

Because I was selfish.

I still love you, Nur.

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