Act 3, Scene 7: Right now

Mum's having menopause again so I'm holing up in my room trying to block out all the hurtful words. I dunno why but everytime she goes through her menopausal episodes, she takes out her anger on me. Anyway, I honestly believe we don't have a good relationship anymore. And it's not like I don't try. =(

I had a very nice week though. But it's left me confused. And I don't really like what I'm starting to feel. So I need to make a decision soon.

For the past week, we've been seeing each other almost every day. Most times, I'd send her to work and we'll have the few minutes when we'd talk. We've also had dinner on Tuesday and supper on Wednesday. But on Thursday, she had gone to a concert with a friend. And I dunno why but I felt a tinge of jealousy. Just a tinge but I hate that feeling. Why? Because she's not my girlfriend; so why do I feel that way?

Over the past 2 days, we've not been talking much. She had lots of things on yesterday and I was out till early in the morning anyway. But I realised that maybe she did not wanna talk and I felt crappy again.. =(

And today she told me she'd made plans with another guy friend and again that tinge of jealousy.

I guess the problem is me. I've a huge inferiority complex and seeing her out with other guys, no matter how much I try to suppress it, I feel crappy. But I haven't told her so far. I just hope I won't have to because I know how much of a fool I would look like if I did. And anyway I'd scare her away..

So what am I supposed to do now?

I'm not in love... I wish I could just believe that myself...