Act 5, Scene 1: When 'when's change to 'if's.

I've finished watching the whole series of HIMYM to date. And I gotta say, as the series progresses,

1) Lily's hair keeps getting more amazing.

2) Ted's and Robin's hair gets crappier.

3) Marshall's gonna join Ted and Robin with crappy hair soon.

4) Barney is still AWESOME.

Also, I don't know why but Ted's character gets so frustratingly annoying. In the first season, he seemed so genuine and sincere about his intentions when he goes out to meet women. But in season 2, when he and Robin are together, it just didn't seem convincing that they were in love; not like Marshall and Lily. And in season 3, when he totally bums out and his hair looks like it's not been washed in months, he is just excruciating to watch. I understand the writers' intention to make him more like Barney, but if he isn't wearing a suit, he just can't pull off the lines cos he looks like some homeless man.

So anyway, new episodes are being aired every Monday over in the States so I usually watch mine on Tuesdays. =) I really really hope this sitcom goes on for years to come. And if it doesn't, I'm gonna buy the DVD set and watch it over and over again.



I want to believe I am getting better. Spiritually, emotionally, physically. But the more I think about the things I am striving to change and the reasons behind my efforts, the more disheartened I become. And I cannot turn to the one person I always turn to.

Cos she's not there anymore.

When 'when's change to 'if's. Think about it. The difference between the two. Same difference as 'hearing' and 'understanding'. When we HEAR, we listen to the sounds that another person makes. It is the basic form of communication where the speaker conveys his or her ideas to the listener. But it stops there. There is no internalisation on the part of the listener and no self-decryption of said ideas.

When we UNDERSTAND, we do all of the above, with the added bonus of forming our own understanding of what is being said. What's the difference you ask? How many of you have sat in a lecture, thinking you understand but realising after, that you had just sat through a blank 2 hour period of your life? Understand?

When we are close to someone, we always say, 'I am here for you WHEN you need me.' Because you make yourself exclusively present for the person when they need you. But as you grow apart, the 'when' changes to an 'if'. E.g. 'I am here for you IF you need me.' The person has the option of turning to you but it is no longer exclusive; like as friends do. You, on the other hand, expect the person to not consider you as the first choice to be 'turned-to'; for there is someone else that has taken that place in their lives.

When things don't work out, the biggest fear I have is not having the strength to accept that things cannot and will not work out. And because I lack this strength, I tend to go back on my decisions alot.

I don't wanna say too much. But a song does spring into my mind about what I've done. It's a pretty old song.



Just the chorus reflects what I am feeling.

In conclusion,

"And it's okay if you have to go away;
Just remember, the telephone works both ways.
And if I never ever hear it ring,
If nothing else, I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay;
Cause I'll remember everything you sang."





I'll always remember everything you sang, Princess.